I had a sudden realization yesterday – an “aha” moment, a light bulb moment. I’m not sure if I can explain it adequately but I will try. While walking around the indoor track with my husband, my symptom of dizziness and imbalance comes on strong and I often get a little down walking the track (although I don’t get suicidal thoughts anymore). What I noticed yesterday is that when a symptom became very noticeable, emotions would come up with it. Then I would get cranky and whiny. So here’s the light bulb: If I disengage emotions from the symptoms, I feel better about myself and about life in general. I’ve had some days where I don’t pay much attention to my symptoms, and I really do feel better! It’s like having the flu – if I focus on the body aches, stuffy nose and sore throat, I really do feel lousy. But if I focus on rest and hydration and release worries and whining, I fell better. So now my challenge is to figure out a way to view my symptoms from a more emotionally detached viewpoint. Not sure how to do that, so if you have any suggestions let me know.