The trees in our yard and mountains are turning beautiful Fall colors. I looked up what Fall symbolizes, and found things like change, ripeness, maturity, and transition. All done in beautiful colors. My husband Steve also seems to be going through a change right now. A few days ago he was having some delusions. When I made some apple cobbler he said I was going to have him taste it first to make sure it wasn’t poisoned. He wasn’t kidding. He also said he packed up Niles, Daphne, and Maggie so they were ready to move, although he wan’t sure who Maggie was. I reminded him that Niles and Daphne were on Frasier (TV show) and he said he knows that but he got them ready to move. Weird, huh? He’s been very drowsy and stays in bed now throughout the day. And this morning he had a fever of 102.8 (It’s gone down since then). So, along with the Fall, Steve seems to be going through a transition into a different way of being. I am hoping to talk him into entering Hospice care, but he is not emotionally ready for that yet. He has 6 more radiation treatments to go and may cancel those, to reserve his energy. We’ll see.
The beauty of this new season of change has been with us as we grow closer, since we are spending lots of time just “being” together. I’ve noticed in our yard some flowers are just now blooming. There are parts of our relationships, with each other, family, and friends, that are just now blooming too. Fall is a wonderful season. Old things fade away gloriously and new possibilities come into view.