Death Watch

Brad, Avery, Glenda, Marlo, Braxton in front

Brad, Avery, Glenda, Marlo, Braxton in front

Last night a wonderful couple from our neighborhood, Don and Lydia, came and sat with Steve while I went with my son and his family and my grandson to see Star Wars The Force Awakens.We wore Star Wars T-Shirts. We had a wonderful time seeing a great movie and enjoying each other’s company. I came home buzzing with joy and fun. And Steve had fun. He asked Don if he liked Asphalt Pie from Winger’s. Don said yes. Steve said would you like some now? Don said, yes, do you have some in the freezer? Steve said no you have to go buy some! And he did.

Quinn Michael Christiaens one month old

Quinn Michael Christiaens one month old

Steve is a little disoriented now. He thinks we are in France. Sounds delightful. He also thought our new grandson is a girl. We convinced him otherwise, although he resisted. We reminded him that Quinn Michael has Steve’s middle name, so of course it would be a boy.

I feel like I’m on some weird death watch. Not only is Steve getting closer to transition, but our 38-year-old daughter is suicidal and threatens to kill herself every day. Although the police met with her today to perhaps take her back to the hospital, she somehow talked them out of it. As far as I know she is spending the night in her car right now with her dog. My plan for tomorrow is to get her stuff moved into a storage unit, because she was evicted from her house while she was in the hospital. She insists that she won’t need her stuff because she will be dead. But I have heard this story so many times before that I believe she will survive and will want her stuff back in the next few months. I just can’t believe that two of my loved ones are so close to death at the same time. I feel a little bit numb. I do my best to stay in the present moment and take one day at a time, knowing that the future will take care of itself without me fussing over it. The hard part is being a witness to both of them suffering so much. Perhaps they are meant to enter Heaven together…

4 thoughts on “Death Watch

  1. Glenda, you have to be one of strongest women I know and have known for over 45 years! I keep your family in my prayers daily; God only knows who will go to heaven and when. Love from Jeanne in CA

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