My husband and I walk 30 minutes every day. Since the weather turned cold we go to the county recreation center and walk the elevated indoor track. It is located above the basketball court and there are usually teams down there practicing. There is a rail on the inside lane of the track, protecting runners and walkers from going over the side and landing on the basketball court. Interestingly, about 2 weeks ago while we were walking I got a strong idea to jump over the side head first so I could die. Weird! I am not depressed or suicidal, so I knew something was not quite right. I started having suicidal ideas whenever the opportunity appeared. So… I went to see my family physician yesterday and he decided these thoughts were side effects of my anti-seizure medication. He has cut the dose and I feel like that is a good strategy. My big lesson here is that recovery not only takes a long time, but it can be complicated. Medication can cause side effects and I must pay attention to odd happenings. My physician said it was important to keep walking, so I should start walking the mall or other safe place, like Home Depot, or alt least have my husband walk the inside lane. We walked the track this morning and I had no thoughts about jumping over the side, so I hope this weird side effect is going away.