I had the CT scan this afternoon of my face, focusing on my left orbit. If I don’t hear anything today I’ll call my physician’s office tomorrow. My neuro ophthalmologist is going out of town on Friday for a week so I hope she confers with my neurosurgeon before she goes. I’d like to get the surgery date set soon. Assuming the CT scan reveals something that can be fixed with surgery…
I thought I already blogged about the out of body experience I had when I was hospitalized, but I can’t find it on the blog and too lazy to keep searching, so here it is. When I had my second surgery, the one where they had to take out some of my skull to alleviate the pressure from my swollen brain, I had the experience. I had been in a coma and this is the only memory I have from the coma. As my body was being wheeled to the OR on a gurney, I left my body and hovered over it, looking down at myself. I always thought I would get excited to have an out of body experience, but I was peaceful and it seemed dreamlike, and a little dark or dim. I didn’t have angels visit, no white light appeared, and I didn’t communicate with anyone or anything, just floated and observed calmly. When we arrived in the OR I lay down next to my body and put my head on the lap of a nurse who was sitting by my body. Now the weird part started: The nurse scooped black balls of energy out of my head (my spiritual head, not my physical head). I knew that she was taking away dark energy and I felt that it was the right thing to do. And that’s all I remember. I don’t remember re-entering my body. After the surgery I came slowly out of the coma over the next few days and as I said, that’s all I remember from when I was unconscious. The experience, although dreamlike, was very real and I have no doubt that it happened.
When I was a nursing student one of my patients had an out of body experience where he actually left the hospital and viewed the city from an airplane. He also watched his own surgery at the time. He said he figured out how to leave his body and could teach people. A;though I didn’t want to learn how to do it, I was always curious what that would be like. Now I know.
Some people have asked if I was given a choice to return to my body or not, but it wasn’t like that at all. I am not sure why I was given this experience, but it has caused me to lose a fear of death. I know there is life afterwards, and it is peaceful.