Yesterday was the day I have not been looking forward to. Since our insurance company only covers 6 months of Hospice Care, we were motivated to ask Steve’s oncologist her opinion on how long he has to live. We know it’s only an opinion and nobody really knows when death will come, but she estimates 6 months. I thought I was prepared to hear that, but it is a struggle to cope with. I cry more frequently now. Before this, the whole thing didn’t seem exactly real. But putting a number to it makes me see that Steve may in fact pass away. He is still hoping for a miracle. I am still hoping that he will go quickly.
For an update, Steve is experiencing lots of pain in his left hip, related to a tumor there. He can only walk, very slowly, with a walker, and getting up an down stairs is very difficult. He received an infusion of Zometa yesterday to strengthen his bones in hopes of delaying a fracture. He also has one more radiation treatment to go. We hope the combination of Zometa and radiation will result in decreased pain. He is up and working in his home office today, on Awesome Pest Control stuff. We hope to have the business sold this week.
I am starting a new part-time job on August 17th. I will be an Associate Professor of Nursing at the University of Utah College of Nursing. I worked there about 15 years ago and am thrilled to be back. I will be teaching Community Health Nursing clinicals and Health Promotion. Those who hired me know about Steve’s diagnosis and were still willing to take me on, which I appreciate. It will be a challenge to leave him a few days a week, but we have plenty of family and friends to take care of him. It was a difficult decision to take the job but I am confident all will work out.