We were watching Steve decline and then rally. We are back to decline again. He had a very painful night a couple of nights ago. He says it’s the worst he’s ever had. Yesterday the hospice nurse changed his medications and he had a good night last night. However, with the change of meds his delusions have come back. For example, he thinks the headboard had dirt in it and spiders are coming in and he needs to spray them. Well I say delusions are better than pain, and he agrees. He is spending his days in bed now. Today he wants to write something for this blog, so stay tuned.
As for me, I am trying to stay organized. It just feels better when company comes to visit Steve if I’m not worried about the house looking clean. I know I could just let that go and quit fussing, but it’s easier to just keep things cleaned up. Yesterday my daughter-in-law Avery helped me re-organize the kitchen pantry and it has added a measure of peace to the kitchen. Now today I need to go through the mail and get that organized, grade papers, learn a new software program for next semester, and answer some emails.Not sure what I’ll do about auto and home maintenance things that Steve usually handles. I have three willing and able sons, thank Goodness. I try to get things done while Steve is sleeping. Which he is doing now. So I will get going.